ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m not asking a lot!!! Why is it so hard to find someone that is just a slight bit generous???? At a freakin church even???

All I need is someone willing to let four guys sleep on their floor for ONE FREAKIN NIGHT. Sure everyone wants to buy the tickets to come see their show, but when asked to let them crash at their place? Nope, apparently we should be suspicious of a christian band for theft. Why should we let anyone into our house? My house is my home, you know?

Actually, I don’t. Give me a freakin break.

Yes, actually, they could sleep at the church.
But, i don’t know. I just thought that maybe and just maybe we could, you know, be an actual church family and open up our houses to some good guys. Give em a couch to sleep on, maybe brew some coffee in the morning and, you know, show some love. I don’t know. I think that would be a good reflection of our church and who we are.

But, apparently we are a church of judgmental jerks. So that wouldn’t be an accurate reflection at all.

ps if all y’all think i’m directing this blog at you, don’t worry. I am.

pick up a copy of this.

i reallllllly enjoyed it.

my first hate mail. YUS!

From: myspace.com/mamakat14

Date: Feb 8, 2008 10:32 AM

Subject:

RE: mmkay chuck norris fans…

 

Body:

i hate you.

ps. this is a hate mail.

one million peace signs.com

is a cool little project to collect, you guessed it, one million peace signs. They featured my picture on this blog.

Check it out. It’s kinda exciting. =)

first tattoo(s)!

It’s on both wrists. It’s going to be an awesome thing to have such a powerful word influence the actions of my hands…

oh, yah. i have new hair again.

It’s a rihanna (asymmetrical) meets katie holmes (bangs). i love it…my WONDERFUL friend kayla cut it!

Should have a couple more posts on sunday…shooting the benefit show tonight. And also seconding at a engagment shoot tomorrow….if it isn’t raining that is.

Ah! My life has been such a blur!

Here are some photos to catch you up with what i’ve been doing…(and once again, just so you know, my blog cuts off all my pictures. poor me.)

Sr.High Winter Camp:  (my last hoorah as working at the church)

sally-

brittany-

Took some pics of Natalie:

And Chelsea: (her pink hair didn’t last too long…)

And Andrew:  an old friend who i hardly see anymore =[

sarah is such a hottie

did a mini shoot today. all this stuff is way back behind my house…abandend car and all. who knew living in the desert could be so awesome?!

as always, check more out here.

“And yet I have to suffer from all of it.”

My boss just got this e-mail today from one of our jr.high girls:

 “hey chris,

     In chuch today you said that we often blame God for the things that go wrong. Well as much as I don’t want to admit it, I sometimes do do that with my parents divorce. And the one that he’s going through right now. And all the other ones I ‘ve had to go through. I don’t blame God for the actions that my dad and mom have made but there’s a really big part of me that doesn’t understand why I have to go through all this pain because of my parents mistakes. I don’t get why God lets me hurt so badly, or why He can’t just let me not feel the pain of it. Why doesn’t he stop it? Why can’t he save me from all of this, because as much as I don’t think it’s God’s fault, I also don’t think it’s mine. And yet I have to suffer from all of it.”

 Where do you even start?  How do you explain God’s role without belittling her suffering?

She doesn’t deserve this and she has every right to be questioning where God was/is during all of this.  What a harsh example of the way divorce effects our kids.  And it’s so prevalent and normalized today,  it’s just a part of life….or so we believe.  My heart is so heavy for her right now.  Chris (my boss) wrote her back at length, but I won’t make you read it all…just a big chunk of it.

“Now I am going to get a little theological and philosophical so hang in there I think you can deal, you’re intelligent. God cannot have stopped your parents from divorce or stopped your pain, just as much as He could not stop Hitler from killing 7 million Jews. Why? Because of who He is in His essence.
Because He is LOVE.
Why would love stop Him from your parents divorcing or Hitler killing 7 million Jews? Well the answer is simple and I will use this analogy.
Can God create a burrito bigger than He could actually eat?       (I know corny analogy, but it works)
The answer is no, He can’t. Because than who is bigger, the burrito or God. God cannot go past who He is cause that would be contrary to God’s nature. When He created us He endowed us with a choice. In His image as we were created we were given the ability to chose life or death. We are able to reason and think beyond ourselves.
God ultimately created us out of His Love. In His love He gives us freewill, with the ability to choose Him or not. God cannot force us to love Him, or make us choose the right. It is this ultimate gift of Loving choice which has been taken so much of advantage by mankind. We have killed, plundered, destroyed all the way through History and left a trail of broken lives due to our abuse of God’s gift of Loving free will.
He cannot have stopped your parents divorce because of His immense love for your parents. He cannot go against His ultimate Love directive which is to give man a choice to follow Him or to walk away from Him.
This is why God hates Divorce. It ultimately takes God’s gift of Loving choice in our family’s and relationships and spits on it. Creating in effect the feelings and world that you find yourself in today.
This is not God’s fault it is ultimately ours (mankind).  We all have a choice to follow Him and do it the right way, but unfortunately most people blow it and leave a tide of destruction in their wake cause the selfishly want what they want and not what God wants.
This is not your fault!
Again I repeat it is not your fault; there is nothing you could have done to change your parents mind. God is in the same boat, He wooed your parents to make the right decision, and gave them all the chances He could, but ultimately it was up to them.”

 

Please pray for the children of divorce.  Divorce ISN’T normal, it ISN’T just a part of life.  It drags our kids through so much hurt and confusion and anger…and they’re kids, they’re just kids.

 

my loves. <3

My sister had me take some pictures of my nieces and nephew for her christmas cards….I think they came out pretty rockin….They must have taken after their aunt lindsey.

Oh, how I love these kids. <3

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